i should be...but i still do get... its been like...so it shouldnt..but it still does.. seriously, why the fuck is it so hard to understand yourself? guess so, sigh
why?
i know i am...and thus conclusion is i should not be..
so it still leads me to...why?
additionally, i read this book on zen. it says, to be zen, you cannot
believe in the concept of dualism, for there is nothing except for what is
in your mind, e.g you see a tree for a tree, not a tree with beautiful
leaves set in the grounds of a beautiful forest. i dont get it. thats
probably why im not enlightened. so i was thinking, how the hell can i
achieve absolute zen, while still believing in the concept of dualism..or
am i just doomed to live my life and continuously argue with my self about
philosophy to never attain enlightenment?