J'enfant

19.3.10

inevitability

inevitability should be questioned. is inevitability really a possibility?
or is it just a word coined to describe that which we could avoid but
chose not to?
was there a moment in time, where we could have made a difference to an
inevitable situation? a situation cannot be viewed just as such, for a
situation is a point in location/time within a much greater location/time.
the intricacy of time and the domino effect of one's actions often lead a
scenario to have many many possible outcomes, with maybe just a slight
change in the minor details surrounding the scenario. but i do believe to
some extent, those minor details are what sometimes makes or breaks a
moment.

thinking is a dreary action. most of us dread it. after all, who wouldnt
love to just turn off their brain and live in the moment, for the moment.
i, on the other hand, never stop thinking. even while im stoning
away...there's actually something on my mind. be it a whimsical fantasy, a
passing thought, retrospective dreams or even plans of the future. i think
so much to the point that i cannot clearly remember when i thought of
what. i believe i tend to forget things, because my brain is already so
overloaded with things to the point that sometimes data just leaks out.
like a bad cycle on your hard disk.

but whats the point of my thinking? i dont know really. sometimes its just
good fodder to post up here and confuse people(though i hope more often
than not, it sets you thinking as well). sometimes its just fun to think
about the way things could be and relish the positive energy you gain from
it. or sometimes, you just think...what if i had...? those are the worst
thoughts of all i bet. after all, regret is never good. i do regret things
from time to time, but thankfully the moment passes rather quickly and im
able to get on with doing things. to live in regret after all is to live
in the past, and i want to live in the future. id love to live in the
moment, but moments pass me by so fast, that they become a memory; a
memory im afraid i might forget. so, i place myself in the future, and
hope that the actions i do brings me there.

i'm in for the ride, not for the destination. question is, where are you
heading to?

another question is...was it inevitable that my writing just wandered all
over the place again, as usual? or am i just too lazy to constrain myself
to writing within the borders. ah hell, screw the borders.

posted by the child on 3:34 PM
0 thought out loud