J'enfant

22.6.10

sleep. BAH!

you know..the one that makes me want to write stuff. what did you think i
meant?

and not withstanding the fact that i actually had nothing to write about,
i got laura to pick something for me to talk on...and hopefully from there
i conjure up some of my magic and make something out of nothing(isn't
necessarily a good thing, now is it?)

memory. those little things, you carry with you. curious things these
memories. vivid, blurry, obscure maybe, changed. possibilities of each
type. denial will make you change a memory simply for the sake of making
you feel better for yourself. its like that little lego boat you built
when you were young. you didnt like the default toy man they gave you, or
woman or whichever. so you swopped it out for your fav figurine.

does that figurine belong there? well you put it there. what prompted you
to put it there? the need to exercise that right to wield control on what
you can, maybe.

lack of sleep may alter your memories.

being half asleep, in limbo, is a pretty funky place. ive said it before i
think. a very thin and blurry line between just a dream, and a serious
thought. not like it makes a difference to me, i think about my day dreams
plenty.
so can you justify that, because you prefer that dream, you'd like your
memory to be more like it?

to make more out of nothing, isn't an equal relationship isnt it? the
universe is meant to be equal, sitting on a tipping scale too large to
imagine, balancing itself.
does that mean, we are balancing out something on the other side?

as expected, totally derailed. i think i have put off sleep too long.