J'enfant

20.1.11

moan!

ive never felt so...constrained before. despite the fact my timetable is
so...blank.

am i tired? am i stressed? i really wonder. ive never felt stress before.
ive always managed to shrug it off somehow and just...i dunno, live the
moment. maybe i think this is it. there's no more living the moment after
this.

i'm going to have to be an adult soon. a job, find a place to live, career
progression. the rat race. the whole shebang. i think maybe i really feel
the whole gravity of the situation now. or maybe im trying to take on too
much responsibility, again.

which is it? man i havent felt my brain needing to think about so many
things in a long time. though, i have to say i am quite happy. but no. no
more living in the moment. responsibility looms. what a bitch!