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why is it that years always sound so far away in the future, yet years of
awkward, unhappy, angry, beloved...moments. yet theyre all easily
remembered and feels... recent. when theyre in the past that is. but think
about the same amount of time frame into the future and, even if you
actually have an inkling of what is to come, you feel weird about it.
true, theres times when you are excited about it cos the positivity just
delights you. but more often than not i think most of us are just
constantly nervous and slightly fearful, if ever at all, of the future.
is it because we've gone through the past so it affirms us that we are who
we are now, having gone through that? that sense of familiarity, the
certainty of knowing..is that what makes pasts...not scary? to not know is
to be afraid isnt it? or so i think.
lately i actually feel a lil less optimistic than i used to be. somehow
maybe the anxiety of getting a job actually is getting to me. never known
stress till this point ever in my life. yet she's shown me that she is
optimistic about everything. and it makes me feel a bit sad knowing that i
am pessimistic about anything, then perked up...knowing her optimism is
gonna help us through it all.
this post started out having potential to be deep. then i started
listening to songs and playing games. blah hahaha.
sigh i dunno. directionless again.
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